Sick...again....

So here we go again, sick sick sick. Woke up at 4am with the worst fever of my life. Threw up this morning. Exhausted now. Just want someone to take care of me...ugh. Luckily Jordan and my host family have taken awesome care of me! And, of course, Nurse Kelly. Man, she is just a doll. Thanks everyone!!!! Hopefully I'll be up and at 'em sooner than later...

Being sick here has got to be one of the scariest and worst feelings I've experienced ever in my life. Other than the fear that is always included in what I like to call "daily life." Fear and sickness. They're terrible.

I would give anything to be laying on the couch at my parent's house in Ohio...with some crackers, clean water, tea, a big warm blanket, my dumb dog, being doted on by my two wonderful parents. I really have taken that for granted my whole life...including when I lived at college, a hour way from home. My mom would drop anything to come take care of me and was always a phone call away (a CHEAP phone call - lol). Not to mention my awesome boyfriend who has come over to my apartment on numerous occasions to make me toasted cheese sandwiches and tomato soup. He ever brought me a little Bonsai tree once, to make me feel better. It worked. Now we're so far away and I feel so helpless. Luckily, as I said, I do have other volunteers close and my hose family wants nothing more than for me to be healthy and happy. I'm a lucky girl.

I feel like sickness can make or break a volunteer, and I know it has before. It's just an awful feeling to be sick in a strange, unfamiliar, lonely place. Ugh. Awful. Totally awful.

I would like to take the time to send my complete and utter love and positive thoughts to the Vogt family in central Ohio. I have been thinking of Nick constantly and I can't even explain my feelings of total compassion for the entire Vogt family, especially Nick. This whole situation breaks my heart every time that I think about it, so I can't even imagine how they feel. I haven't even brought myself to read the Advocate article or the blog about him because I will just completely lose it. I even have dreams about him. I am so sorry. I pray that he will be okay and that he will continue to follow his dreams and do what makes him happy. I love you, Vogt family. And, of course, I love you, Nick!!! <3 <3 <3

Anyway, I'm gonna go rest. I'm just exhausted. However - other news first! I moved into my new apartment today! I am so thrilled, despite my illness that has me down and out. This is the cutest apt ever imagined and I can't wait to feel better and get settled in. Of course I also need to post pics to my photo page (www.photobucket.com/sheburnsbright) but I'm totally behind on doing that. :( :( :( UGH. Just not enough hours in the day. I also need to go to the ATM and buy a shower curtain. No curtain, no shower! Uh ohhhh...

Much love,
Sarita